Okay it is 3:31 in the morning of July 9,2021 and I am suffering from insomnia. When I get frustrated enough, I get out of bed and into my prayer chair. I had previously read a book by Anne Graham Lotz titled: “Jesus In Me-Experiencing the Holy Spirit as a Constant Companion.” I’ve been instructed to copy what Anne says on pages 143-144. This will lead to another post but I don’t know what the contents will be yet. I like Anne because she is not afraid to admit to things she’s done wrong. I believe she was raised primarily by her mother because her father, Billyi Graham, was always traveling. Her mother, she says, spent hours on her knees in the wee hours of the morning praying and a long time at night doing Bible study. I don’t doubt her devotion to the Lord. Someone, aside from myself, needs this information I am about to give. Let the Journey begin. Here is what she said:
“I’ve never taken a personality test. I know myself well enough to recognize that in my natural self I’m shy. Timid. Self-conscious. Fearful. Prone to anxiety. with a large inferiority complex. When God called me to serve Him in a public way, my first response to Him was “I can’t.” And I meant it. But He responded “I can.” And He meant it. I argued, “I am weak and timid.” And I am. But He responded again, ” I’m strong.” And He is. I tried one more excuse: “I’m inadequate.” With no higher education, no formal Bible training, no resources at my disposal, no network of capable people to draw from, to say I was inadequate was an understatement. But He closed the discussion with I’m sufficient. In other words, I felt He was saying, Anne, never mind who you are or who you aren’t. I’m all that you need. Follow Me.
At that critical moment, I had a choice to make. Either I could shrink back into who I knew I was and into what I believed I was capable of, or I could take what seemed to be a huge risk and follow Him beyond my abilities and capabilities, my expertise and experience, my personality and preferences, my comfort zone and convenience. I knew that if I did shrink back from following Him, I could no longer call Him my Lord. That thought scared me enough to motivate me to follow Him. If I failed, then in my small way of thinking, He would be accountable for calling me to do something both of us knew I couldn’t.
What I discovered during the past forty years of following Him outside my comfort zone is that the Holy Spirit has always enabled me and equipped me for whatever He has called me to do. I have been on the most amazing adventure of experiencing what the Holy Spirit can do in and through me if I will simply make myself available.”
And there it is: what I am supposed to convey to everyone out there who reads this. Someone out there is on the fence about something God called on them to do. When I see a message repeated multiple times I know it is from God. The idea of being outside my comfort zone has come up several times in the past. Sometimes it can be just one sentence like “Let the journey begin” and I can feel it resonate with me and I have to be prepared for whatever lies ahead. Another message appeared when a short one-minute video by a pastor in Georgia has appeared several times in my inbox. That message was, “the road ahead will easier and better than the road behind.” https://www.youtube.com/embed/3ydAkNS86HM?rel=0 And there have been more. So whatever is coming up in the future I better prepare myself now. I have no idea what that something is but I have no doubts that I will find out. And so will others out there that need to see this.