Out The Other Side Part II

I had previously written a piece called Out The Other Side which spoke about going through a rough trial with my son and the wide expanse of grace once I was out the other side of it. First of all, the procedure on David’s heart was not successful. He did not meet the $3,000 highway-robbery deductible but hospital admissions let him in with just a down payment of $200 and they will bill him the rest. So for all of you out there who feel moved to help, please to go the GoFundMe page and donate whatever is in your heart. All donations will be greatly appreciated.  https://www.gofundme.com/help-our-ill-pastor

Now here is the part two to the post Out the Other Side. Once you go through something like this you might feel you have attained another “level” in your Christian growth and that’s very possible. BUT…with that comes a whole new ballgame of correction. Suddenly God has begun to show me even more garbage I have to get out of my life or fix. Now, grace be to God, it is truly the work of the Holy Spirit, lest any of us make a sorry attempt to boast. But we still have to acknowledge our sins and shortcomings, yield to God, and allow the Spirit to get to work. This is not as easy as it sounds, let me tell you. Here is where it gets tough and now I completely understand something Beth Moore said a long time ago. When a woman (and I am not sure if it was a friend of Beth’s, an associate, or someone just writing an article about her.) had asked Beth, upon looking at all the numerous books Beth had written, “How do you feel (or think) when you see all this?” (referring to the books she wrote all neatly arranged on her bookshelves in her office.) Beth replied, “One beatin’ after another.”
At first, I admired Beth for her honesty and I knew what she meant. However, now I understand her comment even more so.

Christians must withstand the correction of God which is for our own good, no matter how unpleasant it might be at the time. It is for our edification but also because we can’t be in the Kingdom of God with the mess we carry around. When we submit to His correction, it brings forth more fruit and also can bring forth more clarification of scripture that you have already read. The scripture does not necessarily have to do with being corrected, either. It can be on any topic that God wants to draw your attention to. And herein is the Pearl of Great Price. Well, more of it, that is.

You don’t want to lose the ground you have covered so it is absolutely ESSENTIAL that you maintain your prayer life which is contact with God. Maintaining the position of constant prayer means just being in contact with him no matter what you are doing at the moment. You could be working on a household repair, grocery shopping, dealing with some difficulty or in regular prayer and Bible study.

Also, be warned that the enemy is now going to try more slithery forms of attack. They can be very subtle and he is not above using scripture against you. Keep your armor on! Ephesians 6:10-11 No matter what he throws at you, keep your eyes on the Lord who loves you more than you will ever know in this lifetime and who will never leave you. Be strong in the Lord and the Power of His might.

Above all, don’t resist the Lord’s correction. You’ll only get yourself into deeper trouble. That includes making excuses, lying to yourself by denying the sin, lying to God by doing the same and pointing the finger at someone else as if their bad behavior is the cause of your sin. The serpent in the Garden only slithered around the tree and spoke to Eve. He didn’t pull out a .45 and hold it to her head. Or Adam’s, for that matter. Or…believing the devil’s lie that you have time to repent because Christ is not returning right now. That gets you into deep trouble on two counts. One: you don’t know when your last day on earth really is and two: you are allowing Satan to build a stronghold inside your mind and heart which will take strong action on God’s part to fix. In other words, expect a good spanking.

I want to take this opportunity to offer up prayers for others. My sons David and Derek, who is facing financial and housing difficulties, my granddaughter, Alex, my sister-in-Christ Lene (leneinjapan blog) and her daughter who, at age 10 is experiencing emotional difficulties, my other sister-in-Christ, Won (who is from Korea) and is suffering with Lupus and all other Christians who are being persecuted and suffering. May our Lord and Savior heal them and rescue those who need rescuing. Thank you, Father.

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Why I Like Beth Moore

It seems ages ago that I became acquainted with her Bible studies. I was leaving a bookstore at the time and I can’t remember if it was the now-defunct Borders Bookstore or Barnes and Noble. The religion section was off to my left and someone was calling me over there. It was Jesus. But thinking it was my imagination, I left the store. I ended up going back because curiosity got the best of me. When I walked to that section the pull of Jesus was even stronger until, as I walked along the wall of books, the one book I needed to see jumped out at me. It was “Jesus – The One and Only.” It was a big book, a Bible study, written by Beth Moore. I took the book down off the shelf and I bought it. I am not sure if I bought it that day or had to wait till I had the money to buy it but I did eventually buy it. It was riveting and I found Beth Moore very human and I could identify with her. I absolutely loved the study about Jesus, my One and Only.

I have a number of her books now and she is far from perfect as any honest Christian can say about themselves. There have been plenty of negative things said about her and things taken out of context. I remember seeing a small section of one video of hers some time back and it was clearly an old one judging by the poor quality of it. But that one particular section made me frown and I was saddened by it.

Well, in my heart, I still wanted to like her and still bought her studies. The most recent one I have is called “Entrusted” which I have been going through slowly. In that study she totally admits to her own mistakes and past sins which have long ago been repented of. One of them now explains that video clip I saw. I will just write what she wrote here:
“I wanted to please people in the worst way and I do mean the whole lot of them. Every camp of Christianity. Every person I taught. My leaders, my friends, my coworkers, and God knows I wanted to please my mother.”

It was a people-pleasing addiction that she had to break with the help of God. And she did break it. I am not going to go into that old video at all. It’s in the past, but I want to illustrate that no true Christian is perfect and we all make mistakes. Whoever posted that video clip on their own website was looking for something to condemn her by. They should be more worried about what Jesus thinks of that than what Beth Moore might have said or did many years ago.

The never-ending spiral of people pleasing addiction can turn anyone to dust because people, as a whole, are selfish and there is no pleasing them. Because just when you think they might like you, they end up treating you with contempt. It is way, way better to please God and a much nicer experience. In pleasing people you might also compromise with your own core beliefs, as well, which puts you in more danger of displeasing God. Besides, if you stick to pleasing God He will take care of those others, as well.

So for the most part, I like Beth Moore because she writes really great Bible-based studies (I saw the one on the Patriarchs in Lifeway Bookstore that I really want to get!) and because she is very human and will admit to it. And it also takes a lot of courage to admit one’s mistakes in public. Most have trouble admitting their own secret sins to themselves, let alone open themselves up to public humiliation by admitting them in print.

The lesson learned is to be careful of what you read and believe about others unless they are glaringly a heretic and I can name a few who make my hair stand on end. But instead, have the mind of Christ and pray for His guidance. Pray for those who might have fallen off the narrow road that they might be brought back to Jesus. Sometimes it is just best to have tunnel vision with only seeing Jesus Christ standing at the end of it. God bless you all.

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Out The Other Side

Psalm 18:19- “He brought me forth also into a large place; He delivered me, because He delighted in me.”

My son, David, had his surgery on Tuesday, March 7th. He was awake for all of it and he felt some of it. It was painful. They had to burn one of the nerves causing the problems and it was in a tricky spot, right near an artery. He came out of it just fine, otherwise. It will be awhile before he heals. He’s very exhausted from it all. I praise God that David is still alive. Right now he’s home resting. He was not allowed to drive for two days. Tomorrow he might go back to work at his job. I pray God has him working full time as a pastor so he can quit his awful day job.

In the meantime, we all are thankful to God for His wonderful intervention in so many ways. Glory be to His Holy Name. He’s a great Dad and Friend.

The first thing I noticed in regards to myself was on Monday, the day before the operation. I was suddenly at peace. It was a wonderful peace and even though I had been through the emotional wringer, I knew David was going to be okay. Beth Moore one time stated in one of her books about going through a very rough trial and then coming out the other side to find oneself in a wide expanse of grace. That’s where I am right now. It’s like standing in a sunny meadow filled with the scent of wild flowers, a gentle breeze and hanging out with Jesus! And He’s standing there, just smiling, because He knows, more than anything, that I have wanted this; a secret desire of my heart. I finally have gotten to experience what I had read about and even mentioned in some prior posts. I can’t even explain the level of contentment I have right now but I feel something has definitely changed within me. I have to wait to see what fruit produces.

I can tell you with 100% certainty that I was under very, very heavy demonic attack, especially after that last post. In fact, everything hit the fan with other people that I love, including David, my other son, Derek and my good friend, Walter. The demonic attacks were so severe in my case that I remarked to David in an email that I guess I must have hit the nail on the head when I wrote that last post because satan was really angry.

Right now I’m in my own little recovery mode but this is the first time I have had a sense of well being that has lasted for days. I can’t tell you how wonderful that is! I’m pretty tired and need to heal and recuperate a bit but I really want to get into some serious study and more memorization. I have this goal now to do more of that. I don’t know what God’s exact plans are for me, but I think things will start moving forward quite suddenly now. Right now, I am floating in this good feeling He has given me and I am so thankful to Him for it.

I pray that all of you experience this. It is wonderful.

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Radical Faith

What is radical faith? I hope to illustrate it here in this post. The reason I am writing this is because I am in a situation that requires it. I had previously written about my son, David, and how sick he is. He is going to undergo a procedure on his heart on March 7th, 2017. He is so ill he can barely make it through the day. Needless to say, I have been beseeching God for his healing every day. As I am going through this with him, I have often wondered as to the why of it, as most Christians often do when confronted with something catastrophic or life-threatening.

God does not do things willy-nilly and there is always a purpose for everything we go through. Of course, He wants us to draw near to Him, to be closer to Him. That’s a given. But what if there is something else brewing below the surface? What if He is using this particular trial to accomplish something great?
“Now unto Him that is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us.” (Ephesians 3:20 KJV)
I bought a book by my favorite Christian author, Priscilla Shirer, titled “God Is Able.” It is perfect for this situation and any situation you find yourself in because she addresses everything you can possibly feel while going through it. I never once doubted God’ ability to heal. But she took it a step further and said He would do it, He would intercede on my son’s behalf, on your behalf for whatever you are going through because He is KIND. I also know this because Jesus said whatever we ask for in His Name, the Father will do it. Healing is in Jesus’ nature. He healed thousands when He walked the earth and many times more since then. And it is also stated in Matthew 8:17 “That it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Esaias, the prophet, saying Himself took in our infirmities and bare our sicknesses.”

Going back to what He might be working out in this case is most likely multifaceted. He is working something out in David and He is definitely working something out in me. Because, in spite of what people see on the outside, they will never see my interior life with God. It might manifest itself in some ways as it comes to the surface but the deep down thoughts of my heart are for His eyes only. What request of my heart is He about to grant using this health crisis my son is going through? [I also have another son, Derek, who desperately needs Divine Intervention and also healing at the same time, too. In fact, a complete spiritual overhaul and strengthening.]

First, let us look at two very prime examples of radical faith and what it can do. In both cases, it did not take an entire congregation praying for the person. It only took the faith of one. In Matthew 8:5-13 we read the story of the Roman Centurion who came to Christ to ask that his servant be healed. Christ was ready to go with him right then and there, but the Centurion tells Him that he is not worthy enough for Christ to enter his house. Instead, the Centurion says, “say the word and my servant will be healed.” He then uses himself as an example of one who orders commands and asks Christ to do the same. Jesus, astounded at this man’s faith, his radical faith, heals the servant immediately.

In Matthew 9:18-20 we read that Jesus is on his way to resurrect a young girl who is sick and will die. But as he is about to do this miracle, a woman who has bled for many, many years creeps up behind him, saying in her heart that if she can just touch the end of his cloak, she will be healed. No one else is paying attention to her, no one else is praying for her. She is alone in this with the exception of God, Himself, who is but a step away from her. So with her radical faith, she reaches out and touches his cloak. Jesus immediately feels it and turns to ask who touched him. His disciples tell him in disbelief how can he ask this when there is a crowd pressing up against him. It is then that the woman reveals herself and Jesus tells her that her faith has made her whole. She was healed at that instant.

So what I am praying for is David’s complete and total healing. But deep inside of me I want to be changed, radically changed. I want a faith so rock solid that nothing will shake me. Not only do I want to be a profitable servant, I want to be weapon in the Hands of my Almighty God and Savior. So while satan has been driving a knife into my heart, I want to take out my sword and cut his head off! I want God to use me in ways I never would think possible.

David’s healing will have a galvanizing affect on our little church as well as a riveting affect on those who don’t even believe. Because I know once he is healed, he will be an unstoppable warrior in the hands of God. Just as I will be, just as others will be. An unstoppable, fearless weapon.

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The Monsters Are Due On Maple Street

I had watched an episode of Twilight Zone with that above title. The scene opens on a Saturday in a normal American neighborhood in the 1950s. Everyone who is outside sees an unusual sight. It appeared to be a meteor falling to earth but they heard not a sound. A short time later, they began to experience electrical failure such as lights suddenly not turning on and cars not starting. In addition the phones, stoves and even transistor radios (those were portable radios back in the day.)stopped working which added to the general state of confusion. One guy, Pete Van Horn, walks off to the next block, Floral Street, to see if they have a problem. Two of the husbands decide to head into town but the car doesn’t start. They decide to walk but before they leave a young boy, named Tommy, tells them about a science fiction story he read describing how this is how it all starts. He proceeds to tell them about aliens that landed to earth and even stated that they had sent a team of four: a man, woman and 2 children, who look human but are not, ahead of the landing. Soon everyone is looking at each other with suspicion. One of men tells the others to get a grip and not to believe the imagination of some child.

However, soon more things go awry, like one man’s car, that didn’t start before, suddenly starts by itself and he was not even in it. The car suddenly stops. Mob mentality is beginning to take over as they walk toward the man, named Les. One guy, Steve, tries to reason with everyone but to no avail. Les begins to back away, afraid as they cast suspicion upon him; that he must be one of the aliens sent ahead of the landing. The car starts and stops. People start talking about seeing the guy looking out at the sky at night. Even though he explains he has trouble sleeping, he is not believed and the woman accusing him adds an unproven explanation based on little or no fact. “He was staring up at the sky as if he was waiting for something.” (an erroneous supposition on her part) Les tries to reason with them warning them they are starting something here that is not true and out of control. Steve tries again to reason with everyone, yelling at them at this point.

Once night descends, they are in total darkness and emotions run high and reason goes out the window. Steve still tries to reason with everyone but this one man, Charlie, is losing control fast. Everyone sees someone walking down the street in the dark and one of the guys runs to get a gun. Charlie grabs the gun and ends up shooting the person. Turns out it was Pete Van Horn who had left earlier to find out about the next block. Pete lays dead in the street and Charlie is wailing how was he supposed to know because it was dark. They chase Charlie back to his house and throw rocks at him. Charlie, in an attempt to cast suspicion onto someone else, names the child, Tommy, as the alien. Tommy runs for his life back to his house.

Soon the lights on various houses suddenly go back on, and then more, flashing on and off. Everyone is running amok in the street, totally out of their minds with fright and madness. Shots are fired, windows busted and everyone is screaming wildly.

Up on a hill, two aliens are watching this. Yes, they engineered the whole thing but there were no four people sent on ahead. Those on Maple Street were all human. The leader tells his subordinate that this all follows a pattern no matter what city they go to. They just disrupt electricity and every appliance and vehicle. Then after the humans are in darkness for a few hours they all react the same. He says, “They pick the most dangerous enemy they can find, which is themselves.” He says they go from one city to another and watch the people destroy themselves.

Does this sound familiar? The aliens in our case are satan and his demons. He’s been doing this for millennia. It is more apparent now because of our increased population and technology. But the game plan is the same. Turning man against each other is quite easy for him and humans, most of which don’t believe in God, go along with it.

I saw the news leading up to the present election and the inauguration. Hate on BOTH sides is very apparent. Yes, those who are shouting at President Trump about his “hatred”, they are engulfed in it, too. In fact, some of the things they are shouting about he did in the past and he apologized for and said that it was in the past. Well, that’s not good enough for those people and whatever he did in the past still sticks to him in the present. (I’m not defending him but using him to illustrate a point since the reaction to his election is so extreme. He got elected by the people of the United States. No, I don’t believe Russians had anything to do with it. That’s more Monsters on Maple Street. I don’t trust government agencies 100% to tell the truth, either. But you can apply this to anyone, really. If Clinton was elected, I’d be saying the same thing, though I’d have more to say because I definitely don’t support her. Once she said that Christians had to change what they believe to include those who are blatantly against the teachings in the Bible and want to remake God in their own image, I didn’t want anything to do with her even more so than before. If God says a particular behavior is wrong, then that’s it! God does NOT change.) It’s easy to point the finger at another. If the sins of all those finger-pointers were revealed for all to see, there would be very little said about another person. [You will note that the ones screaming about how the other guy is full of hate, do the most damage and destruction? The riot on election day is proof of that. In fact, the rioters, all dressed in black with black balaclavas and head scarves, remind me very much of ISIS fighters as they ran amok busting car and business windows.]

Yes, love does Trump hate but those who spout it don’t know what real love is. I’m definitely not a perfect example of it, either. But Jesus is. He gave His life for you, all of you. Not a select few. Everybody. When God says the whole world, He means it in its entirety. John 3:16.

When Christ returns, it’s all going to change rapidly. There won’t be any finger pointing or shouting about one’s own rights. God will tell you that you have no rights. Mankind is not capable of governing himself and history and current events have proved that over and over again.
True peace will reign under Jesus. There won’t be any hardships or evil in the world. It will all end.

As for me, I can’t wait. . .

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The Pearl of Great Price…

..Is your salvation. Guard it with your life. Do not slack off or become lazy as we live in very perilous times and it will get much worse. First, I have a disclaimer for all those who need to hear it. I didn’t vote. Yeah, that’s right, I didn’t. As for why…it was something really simple. I missed the cutoff date to register. I had so many other things occupying my mind that I completely forgot. I wasn’t 100% in favor of either candidate. I’m not really politically minded, anyway. When I booted my computer up the day after the election, I stared at the screen in disbelief that Trump got elected. I was shocked and suddenly things felt surreal. I knew if Hillary was elected, Christians would be facing serious persecution and I was getting my heart ready for that because that is who I thought would be elected. When I saw Trump’s name splashed across MSN.com I realized that when I spoke to God the previous night, He actually clued me in. I don’t even remember what I was even praying about but there was a sudden peace that came over my heart when God let me know it was going to be Trump. I thought it was a bit odd when I felt it, too. My reaction was, “Nah it couldn’t be.” God is in ultimate control of everything, in spite of the fact that this planet is being run by Satan who is going full blast revving humanity up with more hatred. I had previously thought that God had washed His hands of the United States but when I felt that peace, I obviously jumped to the wrong conclusion. And when I saw the political map displaying which states were red and which ones were blue, it was a surprise at how many were red. For whatever reason, we now have Donald Trump as the next president. Trump is not 100% God-approved candidate but if you read your Bible, God has influenced even the most pagan kings to do His Will. (Like the Book of Daniel, for example. Joseph-coat-of-many-colors ended up in a very high position in Egypt all to accomplish God’s will.) I still thinks its all surreal and I can’t even begin to imagine what is going to take place next, which is why…

YOU MUST GUARD THE PEARL OF GREAT PRICE. Yes, God protects us but you can’t slack off and be very, very careful of what another Christian writer has to say. I’m saying this because some have gotten really lax and, in some cases, downright dangerous to your salvation to read. I won’t mention any names right now but there is one writer whose books I have actually thrown out. Why? Because her writing was getting sensual and too “me” oriented. That’s why. If a writer is concentrating more on the self and not on getting closer to God through prayer and Bible study and allowing the Holy Spirit to take over, then that writer needs to be ignored. This particular writer whose books I threw out, is very, very popular. I don’t know why she posted pictures (twice) of her unmade bed in the bedroom she shares with her husband and references their active sex life. Yeah, I stopped subscribing to her post, too.

I one time walked into a church that was sensual and didn’t stay long. Too many disturbing things were taking place and it made my hair stand on end. When the pastor mentioned a reference during the sermon to his sexual fantasies and they also hold sex classes for couples, I knew I was in the wrong place. It took an encounter with an unbalanced individual to propel me out the door. All events were happening at the same time. So…this tells me that Satan, who flashes sex before our eyes with today’s marketing, has been working on the Body of Christ. It’s not just a case of the pastor running off with a choir member, it’s infiltrating the church as a whole. Unless, you put on the whole Armor of God. Unless you are getting that sin out of your life and not toying with it for years and taking the grace of God for granted, you will get your butt whooped by Jesus. Or you will have the door slammed in your face. Because you see, the longer it takes you to get your act together, the more time Satan has to build a stronghold in your mind and heart that will be difficult to take down. It will take a lot of prayer, fasting and talking to God to turn your life around.

I have a little prayer corner in my room. It’s just a straight back chair painted black that I picked up at Goodwill for $8. I put it by the window and I have a folding table that I use to put my Bible and notebook on. It’s one of those small ones that people use to put their food on when watching TV. But as soon as I sit in that chair, I feel peace come over me. It’s like sitting in the Throne room of God. So I can look up at the sky and the tops of pine trees and talk to Him about anything and everything. My day goes 100% better when I do it. You know, you don’t have to spend hours with Him to get any benefits. I would love to be able to spend longer times with Him and I have to work on that this year. You can pray anywhere, anytime. You don’t need a special corner. I just happen to have a tiny space I can fit a chair and little table into. img_20170106_132629556

There is going to be more escalated violence headed our way and it’s already begun. People are filled with so much hatred that they are controlled by it and can’t see beyond that.

Stay close to God. Compare whatever anyone says to what is in the Bible. Stay away from those who are too “me” oriented and not enough Jesus oriented. Time is short, folks. So, above all, work on being spiritually minded and put to death your carnal nature. Christians have no idea what it is like to be very spiritually minded. It’s a whole other realm of existence.

We are getting closer to the return of Christ as things go from bad to worse to worse than we can possibly imagine. I feel such an urgency to exhort my fellow Christian to beef up their life with God. Remember Who you belong to. Remember who the enemy is. You have a Power within you that slays Satan to the quick. Don’t let it burn out.

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Help Our Sick Pastor

The pastor of our tiny church is seriously ill. He has sleep apnea for which he needs a machine to breathe at night. But more seriously he has heart problems and might need a pacemaker. He also has growths on his thyroid. He works a full time job outside the church to support his family and he is trying to sell his motorcycle and get another vehicle because his coordination is so off that he can’t ride the Harley anymore. Most of the time he is just so beyond exhaustion, he can barely function. I don’t have Facebook but have started a GoFundMe page in order to try to raise some funds to help him. Right now anything would help. He also goes to Bible school, too. He has to get up very early every morning to do his school work and then get his wife up. Right now he has a ride to work and I take him to his doctor’s appointments. I think he had five or six this month alone. I’m his mother. The GoFundMe idea came to me while praying. So any success goes to God, not me.
Anyway, here is the GoFundMe page. Please put this on your Facebook page or pass it around. Anything would help right now. http://www.gofundme.com/help-our-ill-pastor

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